Sunday Scribbling: Dear Diary

Sunday Scribblings

Dear Diary,

Why is it so hard for me to keep a journal? I write a few entries, read them, realize how boring my life sounds, and then quit the journal. I need to change my thinking about journaling. It should be a place where I can be honest with myself and work through my problems. Through journaling I can be inspired to write and do new things. I've read that my journal can be: an idea book, a place to record my thoughts and feelings, a sketchbook, a place to write my prayers, a record of my life, a place to collect quotes and writing prompts. I don't have to follow certain rules, because it's for me. In a journal, the pressure is off. I can just write.

I didn't realize that so many grey hairs would be sprouting at the age of 38. I used to think that if I wanted to do something, that I needed to do it by 40. Boy was I wrong. Yes - my body is slowing down and I require daily meds to function. However, my mind and spirit are growing. Things are starting to make sense now. I'm beginning to realize how I can overcome the obstacles in my life. I'm beginning to believe that my dreams will come true. Knowledge and wisdom are starting to build up in my brain. I have experienced many things and learned from many mistakes. My relationship with God is growing; I'm beginning to value it. I see how I need Him to lead me and strengthen me. I have hope in my future, because I have hope in God's will for my life.

New idea to pursue: Start a blog where I can write using writing prompts on the Internet.

What I want to do today: Play Chicken Foot with the kids. Spend some alone time talking with my 10 year old daughter. She's going through a weird stage right now. I want her to know that I'm there for her - that I support her.

Prayer: Dear Lord, What do you want me to do today? I have some ideas. I have my mental list. But there is only so much time today. What things should I scratch off my list? Is there something that I should do or someone I should talk to or encourage? Please show me.

Shari